i need to do some self-reflections.

have not been performing up to my expectations this semester. & that makes me v sad cos usually my self-expectations aren't very high.

i failed my 202 midterms with 10/25 when the average was 15.

i know i did badly for 202 excel quiz bcos my figures didn't tally for the 1st qn & i didn't complete the 2nd qn.

& now, i got D for my astro quiz. yes i didn't study a lot, but i thought i wld be able to get at least a B or a C. after the quiz i felt quite confident & i was expecting good results from it.

oh yes. PA also. all my friends have gotten a company, but i'm still going thru the agony of searching and applying for companies, & those that are in the list aren't very fantastic.

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why? my study methods haven't changed since sem 1, why is my performance this semester so not up to standard?

okay maybe i should motivate myself a little. our grp got the highest score in the class for icee proposal, & i personally think our report's really well done, with all the colours & diagrams & borders. prof sarjit also really liked our class presentation on cobit & said we used IT for an IT presentation which was commendable. he also liked our game cos it had some risk learning points.

also, serene says i did quite well for claw presentation cos she cld see my marks.

& although our marketing tutor is biased against us, he didn't really throw a lot of qns at us for our tata presentation, & even said it was well done. and, i think our bonheu will be a much better presentation than tata, cos we really put a lot of effort into it (:

hmms. so it's probably 202 that i need to channel all my effort into. i don't know why i'm not doing well in it. i understand the concepts & for the tutorials that i have done my answers were correct. but why i fail my quiz & screw up excel? i really dunno.

okay, to end my ranting & to not make myself feel so adverse toward 202, i think i should encourage myself more by saying that i think i did well for the mgmt meeting. & our grp did wonderful too, especially when handling the qns posed by the exco & other divisions. all thanks to the many meetings & of cos with the help of lovely chaili :D

haha. what a long post. i guess i really needed to rant cos i've been bottling all these up for quite long. i'm thankful for all the grpmates i've met this sem, & of cos for T9. they're the main reason why lessons are still bearable (:

bye

this week

i've lost the drive to blog again! ): don't know why i was in the mood for the past few weeks lol. shall just do my 9 things today.

1. iCEE report 95% done. & it was the first time i stayed in sch till 11pm :/
2. weekday meet-up with d! meeting up on a weekday makes me happy bcos d's finally not in camp, and NEVER has to go back to camp :D
3. had dinner at lailai on wed! 3 more chops to go before i can redeem something! ^^
4. finalised claw presentation slides. the stupid desktop in s3.2 seminar rm 3 didn't save our presentation on fri so we had to redo it. zzz. so glad it's all done now! :D
5. have decided that i shall just eat 菜饭 everyday. i shall try not to get bored of it & go eat chicken rice or malay food. bcos although chicken rice is same price as CF, it's not filling. & although malay food is as filling as CF, it is on the avg 80c more expensive than CF.
6. watched 'a minute to win it' on wed & thought the games were hilarious but yet they require skills & strategy.
7. re-submitted phase 2 applications because they removed some companies that i previously chose! >:( okay but it's probably the companies withdrew.
8. my marketing grp is great <3
9. 1ST MARKETING PRESENTATION OVER! :D :D :D

bye.

it's so hard to be happy

but i think that's bcos i've strayed away from my focus.

i'm getting buried in projects to the extent that i keep questioning myself why do i have to do this, instead of why did i want to do this in the first place?

after reflecting, i realised what i am learning is truly what i am interested in. how businesses work, the different levels in the supply chain and revenue cycle, the different costing systems, and even marketing techniques, are all what i was excited about before entering uni.

but it's really really tough to focus on everything at one go & to absorb soooooo much info in the same period of time.

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and i forgot to post my weekly post. maybe tmr. no. maybe during the weekends.

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i have to keep reminding myself why am i in this course, and what do i want to achieve, what do i want to learn out of this 3 years.

微加幸福 - 郁可唯

怎么在爱里微加幸福？

这是每一对情侣都应该考虑的问题吧。多一点关心，少一点自由，都好像不对。怎样才能找到平衡？找到了，又怎样维持？

要怎样做，才能够每天都享受恋爱的滋味？

要怎样做，才会每天都觉得幸福？

what's happening to me?

d says i look pale, that i have a lack of water intake.

mummy says i look pale, ask me whether i want to drink chicken essence.

i think i'm really too stress alr. & yep it's true i have low water intake ): must really make it a point to regularly drink plain water.

and once again i realise i am dropping a lot of hair. like during lessons, sometimes i will randomly run my fingers through my hair, and then i'll grab one/two strands of hair out. and usually in one hr i run my fingers through my hair quite a number of times :/

and then just now when i was sitting at the sofa watching tv, i was just playing with the ends of my hair (i didn't even hand-comb it), only the ends, and then i found three strands on my palm. and everytime when i comb my hair after i bathe i'll find a lot of strands too, but well i guess that's normal.

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i hope i'm normal. and i really can't work under stress. probably the business industry is really not suited for me. i should just work in the vcd shop and get $4/hr.

today

i went to d's hse for dinner.

so the convo after dinner went like this.

d: you want tea?

me: ya.

d: what do you want?

me: oh. got choice ah?

d: er... not very much.

me: so what tea you have?

d: english breakfast tea.

me: what else?

d: er... that's all.

-.- i dunno how he became so lame. i really hope it's not me.

i have a question

do my friends still read my blog? ahaha.

was looking through my archives in 2008-2010 & realised that whenever i blogged, i blogged with the impression that i was talking to my friends, if not, everyone (whoever that may be).

but now when i blog, i seem to blog to myself. LOL. gradually going into the #foreveralone stage.

so i really want to ask.

HELLO FRIENDS, DO YOU STILL READ MY BLOG?

d excluded. i know he reads (:

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so if you are my friend and you are kind, please leave a comment below this blog post with a 'YES'. ahahaha.

if you are not kind & don't want to waste ur time leaving a comment, hmmm .. then i can't stop you also. LOLOL.

goodbye world! (yes i used to say goodbye/goodnight to the world)