Sep 2, 2008

在不同人的面前,总会表现不一样的自己。有错吗?

我还是比较喜欢独处的时间,不受别人的控制,不受任何约束。

sometimes i just love being at home alone. i can do whatever i want. (:

& that's why i love holidays. :D

Aug 30, 2008

hello!

my mood's better these few days. & i think i'm happy. (:

went for gp tuition on thurs. it was soooo packed. i guess it was because no one wanted to go for the morning session ytd. hahaha. & because it was so packed, there wasn't any 2 adjacent seats. so i thought d & i had to sit separately. but but but.. this nj guy was so nice. when i went over to sit beside him, he said, "i change place with your friend. you want to sit with him right?" hahaha. so nice! :D & another funny thing was that the both of us were busy gobbling up our chicken rice outside the room when ms ho came out & told d to eat slowly. (haha. me eat until full le so actually d was eating mine.) LOL. very very funny.

ytd was tchers' day celebrations! :D went to nj in the morning and waited with d for susu at the bus-stop so that i could eat my beef bagua & we could walk into sch together. in the end, she overslept. !! only when huixian mama called her hse just before assembly did she wake up. hilarious man.. the night before we webcam until too late le, so she couldn't wake up. lol. anw, while susu was contemplating about whether to come to sch or not, the aces day workout started. well basically we couldn't really see the person on stage, cos he was too high up, & we dint really know how to do the actions. so at first we just stoned around and crapped and waited for susu to decide whether she's coming or not. then suddenly, aldred and gang went in front. we were puzzled so we looked in front. and OMG! we saw someone actively participating in the aces day workout. wow whee~ & huixian mama started going high. well she tried to do the actions, to imitate the person in front, as well as cooperate with the person on stage. cenhui & i immediately disacknowledged her as our friend. :D LOL. the whole aces day thing lasted for around 45mins, then manyee & i went to change into our homeclothes as it was 'Be Yourself Day'. after we changed, d called & asked whether we wanna leave now to go back to bp. haha. of cos we say yes. lol. so d, me, manyee, jy, sil & ben went back to bp, with sil & ben looking like they've been retained as they were wearing bp uniform. lol! ok. went back to bp and saw many familiar faces. (: went to look for tchers and had nice chats with them. poor d. once we chatted with mr chin, he was asked to go back to help sci team with njrc next wk. lols.

so after all the chatting, the guys went to play volleyball in the hall while i went to play the piano. haha. then went to chat with jiajie until my beloved earthworm came up. hehe. so we went to the piano again and tried to play jj's songs but all forget liao! haha. sad. then aft that me, xy, avril, airu & sophia sat there to watch the guys play. they were waiting for mrs chiu to be free before they go for lunch tgt. haha. then when mrs chiu came up. they gave her a tchers' day present. & it was a .... G-STRING! omg. so hilarious. i was so shocked that they actually bought such a thing for her. i think mrs chiu was shocked too. haha. so they left and i continued to sit there watching the guys play. & it was quite enjoying. :D not long after jiajie, sil & jy came back (dunno where they went) & they ask me whether they want play cards not. so we play. & i keep winning!! :D

haha. aft a while the guys ended the match & d came over. he play until hands all red lor. lol. then we went for lunch at bpp. ate long john. then aft that the rest went to jiajie's hse. d & i then had an enjoyable journey back home. hahahahaha. d, i so gd to you. i nvr say why it is enjoyable. :D

today spent my morning going to woodlands lib to look for books on cip. in the end the lib dint have any books on cip! GRR. but i found one on national education. hopefully it'll be useful. :X

my hols are packed. i feel i have not enough time to study. :S help.

susu.. really sorry for leaving early ytd. thankfully you're not angry with me anymore le. if not i really dunno what to do. :D

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!! & TO MUMMY AS WELL! <3

Aug 27, 2008

omg i'm so dead. i have totally no mood to study. but promos are coming in less than a months' time.

i'm sick of studying. i need motivation. :(

i need kbox. lol.

Aug 26, 2008

had piano exam today. my examiner's name was mr robin wells. a kind old man. haha. all male examiners are kind. :D but i preferred my previous one. dunno why. :(

anyway, i started with scales as usual, & screwed up my D major scale. yeah i'm so pro right. the next few were ok.. until we went to scales a third apart. i was asked to play Bflat minor, but i broke down & requested to start again. he say start from the top & come down. & i cant start from the top down. so my fingers were just flying about the keys & i think i managed to finish it, but fingering all wrong. T_T then.. he asked me to play scales a sixth apart. he gave me B minor. I COULDN'T PLAY. try & try & try also cant. so he say, "it's ok. let's try another one." so he gave me Eflat minor. ok this was better, but i broke down at the top again, so i had to start from the top. haiz. then he gave me Bflat major thirds right hand. ahahahahaha. i did this well. :D then it was chromatic thirds, left hand. :D :D & then he gave me 1 dominant seventh scale. scale of Aflat major. :D :D :D lye ee gave me this twice! & i fumbled twice. so i practiced that very hard ytd. :D :D

hmm ok. next was the pieces. i played, broke down in the middle of the first piece cos i think my fingers were numb from the cold & couldn't play the running stuff. okay so i picked myself up & continued. the end was okay.. the fugue was ok.. the mozart was nice. :D but i still thought my tempo was out at a few places. & the dramatic part wasn't dramatic enough. then after my 2nd piece my examiner said, "thank you very much." so i thought he thought i finished alr & wanted to go on to sight-reading, so i told him, "i still have one more piece." then he said, "i know. i'm looking forward to it." OMG. 丢脸! so nvm. i still had that one bit of confidence left. so i used it for my last piece. & my last piece was nice nice nice. :D i thought it was the best i ever played. but well, it's all just my own opinion. so after that he said, "thank you, thank you very much. let's go on to sight-reading now."

hehe. the piece he gave me was a very nice piece. it was slow, in 9/8 time. & i was supposed to play it expressively. hahaha. gd gd. i rmb my grade 6 one was presto or dunno what. siao.. so i played the sight-reading piece. & i think my timing went out. as in i keep changing beat. :X but notes wise, i dint miss any. :D

ok then it was aural. omg i hate this man.. he asked me to sing the lower part. so i sang, i thought it was right. but he gave me that look like i forgot to sing some parts or what. he paused for a while then he say, "ok. now identify the cadence." then it's like after i ans every qn he will pause for damn long. like he waiting for me to say sth else like that. ohman.. as if i ans wrongly like that. :X then the sight-singing. arghs.. it was so easy to sing lah.. but i got distracted by the examiner's part so the 2nd half was screwed. & i think i identified the 2nd modulation wrongly. omg omg. modulation was my most confident part in aural. ok. worst part not yet. so the last part of aural was that the examiner play a passage, then i have to say some stuffs about it. then previously all my examiners prompted me. like after they play they'll ask me specific qns. this time round, he just said, "i'll play a piece, & then you'll tell me about it. the form, the period, and the possible composer." so after he played, all i said was, "it's from the romantic period." then i waited for him to prompt me, & he waited for me to say sth else. :X so in the end i couldn't think of what to say (cos i was thinking of what composer it could be) so he asked, "what makes you think it's romantic?" (yay great. i always fail this part.) so i just talked crap lor. then he kept asking, "what else?" i felt like dying man.. then after that he asked me, "who could have composed this piece?" & i stupidly said, "i dont really know." then he say, "impossible! i cant believe you got until grade 8 without playing any romantic pieces. or maybe you play the pieces without taking note of the composers. (laugh)" so i just laughed. bcos it's true. :X then he continued to say, "you could've said ravel (i was thinking of saying him) or sth like that." then he asked again, "so who do you think composed this piece?" omg i couldn't possibly say ravel right? so.. i said debussy. oh yes. anyone who knows music will think i'm a complete idiot. the examiner gave me an amused look, paused very long (his trademark) and said, "alright. thank you very much. bye bye.." and returned me my bk.

AHH AHH AHH!! i felt like crying when i came out. i dunno how i managed to smile at the steward. so i went to the toilet. & then i didn't feel like crying le. LOL. but i was still feeling very dejected. went to kap to eat alone cos d only end sch at 2 i couldn't wait for so long. then i came home. slept for 1 hr, packed my stuff (wanted to study but i was and am still sad) and then watched tv.

ahaha gary cao is so pro man.. he lost his voice but he still can sing so nicely. :D now got 听证会 on 百分百. :D haha. he talk very funny. like girl like that. ahahas.

MUGGING OFFICIALLY STARTS TMR. JIAYOU!

:D

Aug 25, 2008

ONE MORE DAY!!

:D & i'd be free from piano stress.

wheehee~

tmr not going to school! can sleep until 10! :D


yay yay yay. i'm happy now. :)

Aug 23, 2008

i find that as the days go by.. i'm becoming more & more unlike myself.

i'm losing my happiness day by day, & slowly, stress is overwhelming me.

i guess this is what you would see in any typical jc person's blog. haha.


i need a break. really.

just 2 days.. :D

Aug 19, 2008

hello! i am in school now. just finished SPA. & i screwed it up. hurray~

bye bye.

MOVED

i may (or may not) be back.