MOVED

i may (or may not) be back.

it's been 3 weeks!

& today is my last day with the AP team. hmmm... and also the first time i'm blogging in the office. hahaha. i'm not slacking; work starts officially at 7.45 so now it's still a non-working period!

i've learnt many many things throughout these 3 weeks, now that i look back. ytd i was suddenly given a whole stack of documents that i learned how to process during day 2 and ytd i was doing it like i've done it for 10 yrs. hahaha my point is that i realised i learned so much over the 3 weeks, such that those stuff which i struggled with in the first few days, i find it so easy now.

also, the ppl here are really really nice. they are generally mandarin-speaking, which gives me the homely feeling (: and my supervisor is really really nice too. she doesn't stress me and lets me do work at my own pace :D and i'm so grateful that she invited me to join her clique for lunch and i have been eating with them for 3 weeks alr (: and over the days i feel that i'm comfortable enough to chat with them ^^ so no more awkwardness during lunch time!

oh, there's also this korean uncle (i think he's a manager or someone in a high position cos he has a room of his own lolol) which speaks to me every other day. cos my seat is near the pantry, so whenever he goes to the pantry and sees that i'm not very busy, he will say hi and start chatting. he tells me abt his daughter though, bcos apparently i'm the same age as his daughter. hahahaha. should i let him know that i know how to speak basic korean? it'll be so cool if i can converse with him in korean.

okay! 5 more mins before i start work. i shall end this post abruptly.

just now at the interchange

a middle-aged lady came up to me & asked, "你有没有两块? 我要搭地铁." she was sweating all over & she looked like she was in a rush to somewhere. so i thought, okay, $2 is not a lot of money, & $2 is a reasonable sum to borrow if you're taking the train. & if this $2 can allow her to get to her destination then i'll be doing a glod deed!

so i took out my wallet wanting to check whether i had any $2. apparently i didn't. i only had $10 and $5 notes. i cldn't possible give her so much money mah, so then i checked whether i had any coins. like maybe give her $1 then she can go get $1 from someone else. but i only had 10c and a few 5c, which i doubt the GTM at the mrt stn wld accept. so i told her sincerely, "对不起，我没有两块."

then guess what she did. she stared at me & just walked away. -.-" she didn't even say thank you!! then i observed her asking other ppl, and ALL of them didn't even bother to check their wallets before rejecting her. i was nice enough to check & then she didn't even say thanks. why are ppl like these nowadays. the other ppl at the interchange also. why can't they just take out their wallets to check?

first day of work!

& i actually did nothing. lolol.

okay actually i familiarised myself with the surroundings alr. at least i know where the toilet, pantry and the canteen is. these are very important places (:

so, this morning, we spent about 1.5 hr with the HR manager, and she briefed us on the overview of the company as well as other important things that we need to know during our internship here. then she brought us arnd the area, and also to introduce us to some key personnel that we should know.

then after that the 3 interns split up to go to their respective functions and i was brought to meet the accounts controller. he then gave me a more detailed break-down of the accounts department's organisational chart, and then introduced me to all the employees in the department. i dunno how many ppl i've met today @.@ and i've forgot most of their names. :/ i only rmb 6 ppl. lol.

then i had lunch tgt with another intern (Jolyn) and a few managers. hehehe. but they didn't give me the overpowering feeling. they're all VERY NICE PPL!!! :D so they kept asking us abt the education system in ntu and nus now & it's very different from their time.

so after lunch i continue to nua again. just kept reading the materials they passed to me (even though i think i'm not obliged to complete reading) cos i was just waiting for the IT person to settle my computer. there was some accessibility issues & he had to do encryption and whatever. lol. so in the end my comp only got settled at 3.30. so i went to tell my supervisor my comp is ready, is there any work i can do? then she just ask me to do some online training courses first. lol. cos work ends at 4.15 so if i start now then i may not be able to go on time so might as well start tmr. ahaha!

and the online training courses is must complete one. totally reminds me of the army ord quiz. LOLOL. so i completed some today! and then at 4.05 everyone started packing alr. and then i understood why. cos at 4.25 the bus will leave. & if the bus leave, you got no choice but to take 254 and spend $1.31 and waste 10 mins. cos the shuttle bus journey only takes half an hr. hahaha.

am looking forward to work tmr!!!! i believe it will be fun (:

exam rants

my exams have not ended yet ): this is such a torturous process. & my hair is dropping at a speedy rate. i realised even those undamaged hair are also dropping T.T

anw i have been wondering why i am so not motivated to study. i found the answer through 犀利人妻. in the ep that i just watched, 安真 transformed from a typical housewife to an elegant & mature woman who knows fine dining & fashion. she read books & memorised dining etiquette in a short time frame. so what allowed her to achieve that? i believe it was probably the thought of gaining back her husband that gave her the motivation.

so when i look back on my marketing & risk notes, i ask myself, what is the motivation?

i actually enjoy the content of both modules. i think they're very relevant in understanding more abt businesses & their processes. but wanting to get A doesn't give me enough motivation to put my all into studying for these modules. & bcos i'm very contented with my gpa (although it's actually not very good), i calulated that even if i get B+ for both mods i'll still be able to maintain my current gpa. lol.

so i am very not motivated. i need to find some strong reason to enable me to focus while studying, & if possible, to actually enjoy studying. i still have one more yr to go. i don't want to repeat this same agony another 2 times.

also i realised this sem's exam period is the longest i've ever endured. Y1S1's exam period was 6 days, Y1S2's was also 6 days, & last sem (Y2S1) was 13 days. & this sem is 12 days. haha okay i just realised last sem is longer. but last sem no count. cos last sem i was stressed to the brim alr i rmb after tax exam i was just relieved that sch exams were over & i cld concentrate on dip exams. so last sem i actually didn't do my best, or i should say, i allowed myself to not do my best. haha.

so now i actually have sufficient time but i can't bring myself to study whole-heartedly. it's like sometimes i read the tb without understanding & then once i realise i have to re-read again.

okay. 4 days left. i can do this. rambling makes me feel better. back to studying!! :D

first day of exam

i don't like the new blogger layout!! it looks like googledocs. lol. so it makes me feel like i'm doing project, cos for this semester i have been using googledocs to do projects for 3 of my core modules. ahaha.

anyways, today is first day of exam, and i cleared 2 out of 5 papers! ^^ i'm happy bcos the paper that i'm most worried about has been over and done with. i can't gauge how well i wld do for the paper, bcos actually i didn't really exactly understand the instructions of some questions (the setter of the paper uses chim english :O). and for some 7 or 8 marks questions they had several requirements and i didn't cover all so i dunno how much out of the 8 marks i wld get. but i can safely say that i did my best (:

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usually i wld go on a hiatus one month before my exams. hiatus as in i wld ban myself from going to twitter, fb & blogger. but this time round i didn't! & surprisingly i didn't find the urge to blog. lol. & i realised with or without the hiatus, the amt of time i devote to studying is also the same -.-" okay maybe this sem i spent more time studying bcos i didn't have to practice piano!

but it's so weird. for all my life (except O and A levels), i've had piano lessons even while i was having sch exams. and last semester was the worst bcos i had diploma exams exactly 2 weeks after my last paper. so i had to practice piano while studying. & i felt that i was more productive. somehow i felt i could study better. maybe i work optimally when i have a little bit of stress. lol. but not too much.

actually this sem's exam period quite relaxing. & considering the fact that i have more or less finished revising claw, i think i can start revising mkting and 205 for the next 2 days. and the reason why i have finished claw is bcos last monday we had a 3 hr session where prof tan went through all 6 semesters of past yr papers. so in the process of doing the past year papers (i attempted 5 out of the 6), i covered all of the claw topics alr. hahahaha. so in a way i must thank prof tan! even though t9 classmates say she is not good. lol.

anyway i shall just relax tonight & not think about any academic stuff. now my mind is still filled with neutron stars, black holes, redshifting, rings of saturn, Io (Jupiter's moon), Galileo etc etc etc.

bye!

maggi mee

i'm quite proud of myself, bcos i forgot when was the last time i ate maggi mee, which means it must've been a long long time ago :D

2 days ago, i bought ban mian from the coffeeshop downstairs. ate halfway then realised there was a whole chunk of noodles that wasn't cooked. they were all lumped tgt & i cldn't use the chopsticks to pry them apart. so i used my teeth. once i took a bite, i saw that inside that chunk of noodles was flour :X which means the uncle gave me half-cooked noodles! so i just continued to eat the other ingredients, & thus developed a phobia for ban mian & yu pian mifen, cos they're from the same stall.

so ytd i ate duck rice. & actually, besides ban mian, ypmf & duck rice i don't eat anything else from the coffeeshop, cos i think they're not nice. haha.

so... today i ate maggi mee. & i was in a hurry cos i took v long to decide what i want to eat & only started cooking the maggi mee at 11.30, when i was supposed to leave hse at 12. & i hadn't bathed. but surprisingly, the maggi mee tasted delicious. & this is not the first time i cooked maggi mee in a hurry. but whenever i cook it hurriedly, the taste is great. & perhaps that is why it's called "instant" noodles. if you take ur time to cook it then it loses the "instant" meaning. LOL.

i need to do some self-reflections.

have not been performing up to my expectations this semester. & that makes me v sad cos usually my self-expectations aren't very high.

i failed my 202 midterms with 10/25 when the average was 15.

i know i did badly for 202 excel quiz bcos my figures didn't tally for the 1st qn & i didn't complete the 2nd qn.

& now, i got D for my astro quiz. yes i didn't study a lot, but i thought i wld be able to get at least a B or a C. after the quiz i felt quite confident & i was expecting good results from it.

oh yes. PA also. all my friends have gotten a company, but i'm still going thru the agony of searching and applying for companies, & those that are in the list aren't very fantastic.

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why? my study methods haven't changed since sem 1, why is my performance this semester so not up to standard?

okay maybe i should motivate myself a little. our grp got the highest score in the class for icee proposal, & i personally think our report's really well done, with all the colours & diagrams & borders. prof sarjit also really liked our class presentation on cobit & said we used IT for an IT presentation which was commendable. he also liked our game cos it had some risk learning points.

also, serene says i did quite well for claw presentation cos she cld see my marks.

& although our marketing tutor is biased against us, he didn't really throw a lot of qns at us for our tata presentation, & even said it was well done. and, i think our bonheu will be a much better presentation than tata, cos we really put a lot of effort into it (:

hmms. so it's probably 202 that i need to channel all my effort into. i don't know why i'm not doing well in it. i understand the concepts & for the tutorials that i have done my answers were correct. but why i fail my quiz & screw up excel? i really dunno.

okay, to end my ranting & to not make myself feel so adverse toward 202, i think i should encourage myself more by saying that i think i did well for the mgmt meeting. & our grp did wonderful too, especially when handling the qns posed by the exco & other divisions. all thanks to the many meetings & of cos with the help of lovely chaili :D

haha. what a long post. i guess i really needed to rant cos i've been bottling all these up for quite long. i'm thankful for all the grpmates i've met this sem, & of cos for T9. they're the main reason why lessons are still bearable (:

bye

this week

i've lost the drive to blog again! ): don't know why i was in the mood for the past few weeks lol. shall just do my 9 things today.

1. iCEE report 95% done. & it was the first time i stayed in sch till 11pm :/
2. weekday meet-up with d! meeting up on a weekday makes me happy bcos d's finally not in camp, and NEVER has to go back to camp :D
3. had dinner at lailai on wed! 3 more chops to go before i can redeem something! ^^
4. finalised claw presentation slides. the stupid desktop in s3.2 seminar rm 3 didn't save our presentation on fri so we had to redo it. zzz. so glad it's all done now! :D
5. have decided that i shall just eat 菜饭 everyday. i shall try not to get bored of it & go eat chicken rice or malay food. bcos although chicken rice is same price as CF, it's not filling. & although malay food is as filling as CF, it is on the avg 80c more expensive than CF.
6. watched 'a minute to win it' on wed & thought the games were hilarious but yet they require skills & strategy.
7. re-submitted phase 2 applications because they removed some companies that i previously chose! >:( okay but it's probably the companies withdrew.
8. my marketing grp is great <3
9. 1ST MARKETING PRESENTATION OVER! :D :D :D

bye.

it's so hard to be happy

but i think that's bcos i've strayed away from my focus.

i'm getting buried in projects to the extent that i keep questioning myself why do i have to do this, instead of why did i want to do this in the first place?

after reflecting, i realised what i am learning is truly what i am interested in. how businesses work, the different levels in the supply chain and revenue cycle, the different costing systems, and even marketing techniques, are all what i was excited about before entering uni.

but it's really really tough to focus on everything at one go & to absorb soooooo much info in the same period of time.

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and i forgot to post my weekly post. maybe tmr. no. maybe during the weekends.

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i have to keep reminding myself why am i in this course, and what do i want to achieve, what do i want to learn out of this 3 years.

微加幸福 - 郁可唯

怎么在爱里微加幸福？

这是每一对情侣都应该考虑的问题吧。多一点关心，少一点自由，都好像不对。怎样才能找到平衡？找到了，又怎样维持？

要怎样做，才能够每天都享受恋爱的滋味？

要怎样做，才会每天都觉得幸福？

what's happening to me?

d says i look pale, that i have a lack of water intake.

mummy says i look pale, ask me whether i want to drink chicken essence.

i think i'm really too stress alr. & yep it's true i have low water intake ): must really make it a point to regularly drink plain water.

and once again i realise i am dropping a lot of hair. like during lessons, sometimes i will randomly run my fingers through my hair, and then i'll grab one/two strands of hair out. and usually in one hr i run my fingers through my hair quite a number of times :/

and then just now when i was sitting at the sofa watching tv, i was just playing with the ends of my hair (i didn't even hand-comb it), only the ends, and then i found three strands on my palm. and everytime when i comb my hair after i bathe i'll find a lot of strands too, but well i guess that's normal.

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i hope i'm normal. and i really can't work under stress. probably the business industry is really not suited for me. i should just work in the vcd shop and get $4/hr.

today

i went to d's hse for dinner.

so the convo after dinner went like this.

d: you want tea?

me: ya.

d: what do you want?

me: oh. got choice ah?

d: er... not very much.

me: so what tea you have?

d: english breakfast tea.

me: what else?

d: er... that's all.

-.- i dunno how he became so lame. i really hope it's not me.

i have a question

do my friends still read my blog? ahaha.

was looking through my archives in 2008-2010 & realised that whenever i blogged, i blogged with the impression that i was talking to my friends, if not, everyone (whoever that may be).

but now when i blog, i seem to blog to myself. LOL. gradually going into the #foreveralone stage.

so i really want to ask.

HELLO FRIENDS, DO YOU STILL READ MY BLOG?

d excluded. i know he reads (:

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so if you are my friend and you are kind, please leave a comment below this blog post with a 'YES'. ahahaha.

if you are not kind & don't want to waste ur time leaving a comment, hmmm .. then i can't stop you also. LOLOL.

goodbye world! (yes i used to say goodbye/goodnight to the world)

recess week is over :|

yes, recess week is over. but i'm not particularly sad abt it. & it wasn't very hard to get back into study/schooling mode bcos the whole of recess week was just about projects. but there were still happy events nonetheless! i must try to stay positive as much as possible :D

1. my raspberry tea arrived. haven't tried it though. will try starting from next week!
2. marketing proj meeting on wed was enjoyable (: as well as the dinner & shopping with t9 after that!
3. went back to bp on thurs!! :D and i am so happy for d *yippee*
4. had a nice day with d on thurs :D FROLICK!! yay~
5. d got back his IC on friday whoohoo~! finally he has regained civilian status. LOL.
6. hw's 21st at kbox! me long long time no sing. & i'm glad a sang quite a number of songs that night!
   
7. completion of claw essay :D 20% of claw done!!!
8. got addicted to draw something -.- YES I AM HAPPY ABOUT THIS. ahaha.
9. changed my blogskin (:

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went to frolick on thurs & realised that now they have this promotion and that if you're a NSF or have a M1 line, you can get 1-for-1 cup A or B! and it's not restricted to any particular day so you can just go down anytime to get the 1-for-1! lol. and so lucky d is M1, so even if he's not NSF anymore we still can enjoy the 1-for-1 :D & it seems that there's no end date for this promotion :D

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was half-excited and half-apprehensive abt the kbox party. bcos i very long nvr sing, so i was excited cos i could sing. but yet i knew it was going to be a large group, so i was worried that i wld be shy to sing in front of others & that i wld end up singing v little songs. lol but in the end everyone else was shy too! only jn not shy LOL. so i ended up singing a lot of songs with her :D also bcos nobody want to 点歌 so jn went to 点 everything. ahaha.

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changed my blogskin to something simple (: i thought i wld be using the previous blogskin forever, but i dunno why i suddenly decided to change it to a simple one. oh yeah, i think it was bcos i thought i should update the photo collage (see pic below) to more recent pics. but i was lazy to do it. & i didn't wanna leave the old pics there (they're abt 3 years ago) so i changed the whole blogskin!

random sunday

i was doing my claw essay vetting this morn & was doing the appendix, so i had to print relevant pages from the annual report. & so, i started printing happily. after 5 seconds my printer started making weird noises & then i looked up & realised, I HAD NO MORE PAPER.

AND NO BLACK INK. AND NO COLOUR INK.

hahahaha. probably one good thing abt recess week is that i don't have to constantly print notes. so when i don't have to print stuff, i don't notice whether i have paper or ink.

so i had to go to jp to buy, even though i know the popular queue wld be super long.

and i was right! the queue was longgggggggg. so i thought it'd be a waste of time if i queue and then end up just buying one packet (i dunno what you call it) of paper. and so i saw this!!

one box with 5 packets of paper! & obviously there's discount if you buy 5. if i'm not wrong it's like 6.90 per packet, but 25.90 if you buy 5! so i calculated. i saved 8.60! :D

but actually i half-regretted it once i made payment and carried this big box out of popular. the walk to the bus interchange felt like eternity :/ i was alone & some ppl actually stared at me. maybe they think i very strong. ahaha. i have no idea how much it weighs, & i'm bad at estimating, but it's really really really really very very very very heavy.

but once i reached home, i felt proud of myself :D proud bcos i brought this box home from jp by myself, & i didn't stumble or fall or anything. and also proud bcos i saved 8.60 :D

when i came home mummy said, "WOW ... *long silence* ... i think we one year no need buy paper alr!"

HAHAHA yes i think so too! ;) if really can last one year, means i don't have to buy paper anymore! cos i'll graduate in one yr's time & when i start working i'll probably just use company's printer. lol.

and my claw essay is finally 90% done. 10% undone bcos we still have one last round of vetting to go, & need to print essay (appendix printed), bind everything, and submit both hard and soft copies!

nostalgia

very rare that i'm posting pictures! haha. today is the only weekday that i don't have project meeting, i.e. my off-day. lol.

i know i was supposed to use today to do self-revision for 202 and 208, but nope, i need to rest first. haha. & i was glad d went there today, so i could have an excuse to visit there to meet him. & 'there' refers to.....

MY SECONDARY SCHOOL! :D & the sky was very nice today (:

before i crossed the road to go to the bus-stop to wait for d, i went to my favourite after-band hangout: 7-11. haha. & realised they have renovated. which i expected so. lol. and they actually had those kind of tall tables for people to put their food/drink on the table to eat comfortably. last time after band we (my whole section, the 8 of us) used to buy cup noodles/sandwiches, heat them up in the microwave, and then go out and sit at the void deck to eat, like ah lians like that. LOL. & i wld always buy slurpee also, & then walk and drink on the way to lot 1. no wonder i put on weight even though i was in a marching band. hahaha. i miss this place!

after walking arnd in 7-11 for 10 minutes, i crossed the road and snapped this picture! the location of this classroom block hasn't changed, even though bp underwent prime. so yay~ i'm happy. bcos i can see my sec 1 and sec 2 classroom (:

after snapping this pic i went to sit at the bus-stop for a while, but it was too hot so i decided to venture deeper into the hdb blocks nearby. but mainly, bcos i wanted to see...

my beloved field :D the place where we used to march!! although all the soil has been replaced after prime, but it is still my field. it is still the land where we used to march, sweat, bleed, play our instruments. and our 50c game :D

then i spotted some benches at a nearby void deck so i went there to sit and wait for d. sitting there, the sun couldn't get me! but i also didn't get much wind ): but it's okay. i could stare at my field for as long as i want, comfortably. & just nice, in the pic i snapped above, a class just came down for their PE lesson. so i had sth to watch! hahaha. oh & i also observed a stray cat for 5 mins. it went to the grass beside the void deck & started digging. i think it was hungry. but it gave up after 5 mins.

my pretty shoes. actually cannot really see the actual colour. but they are pretty shoes (:

then d was done! so we took a slow stroll to lot 1 after that. & that sums up the start of my day (:

i miss bp. really really miss. but i think i only miss it bcos of the memories i had with my flute section & the rest of the band, & bcos i met d there :D but still, that's enough reasons to miss a place.

weekly 9 things

hello! i am not truly enjoying my life now, but it will always get better (:

1. d's ORD *jumps arnd happily*
2. aa202 midterm over!
3. finally a free weekday last thurs. i spent it well!
4. lailai last thursday. & our bill was 30.70. just nice 3 chops!
5. bought bodyshop shampoo and nail filer :D and + d's purchases the bill was 60.70. also just nice 2 chops! (:
6. long long proj meetings (marketing & risk) on wed but they were productive!
7. getting a lot of prizes on friday's 205 lesson :D
8. raspberry tea. i'm pinning a lot of hopes on this!
9. it's recess week.

yes, no matter how many projects i have to do, it's still recess week. i need to give myself some time to relax if not i won't be able to continue with the remaining of the semester. haha.

i love to collect chops! & i will be more willing to patronize the shops if they give me member card or a stamp card! :D so.. i love bodyshop and lailai :D

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yes success! i sound really happy in this post :D

:)

yesterday and today were the saddest days of this year so far.

yesterday, my schedule was to do marketing and claw project. but hdt came on saturday night, and therefore the cramps started once i woke up on sunday. had a skype chat with claw grpmates and was trying my best to contribute but i was feeling really terrible.

glad that we were still efficient and i could lie on the sofa after half an hour of discussion. then i was hungry bcos our mcdelivery hadn't arrived so the pain intensified bcos of my hunger ):

and then ... aiyo why am i talking about this? anw ytd was terrible bcos i had to endure all the pain while doing my individual work for the projects.

whined a little on twitter & i'm so thankful for all the ppl who gave me suggestions as to what to do to relieve menstrual cramps (: and that's how i decided to buy the raspberry tea bags. haha.

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so i thought i'd be better today, but no. same pain once i woke up. the only thing that got better was that when i consumed food/drink, it didn't hurt as much as yesterday.

i had claw proj grp meeting today. & initially i really didn't want to go. but of cos i still went! & it's good that i went. we finally have a structure for our essay and after i'm done with this blog post i'm gonna start on it alr (:

on the train back i was still quite emo bcos there was no place to sit. and bcos i thought of all the things that need to be done by this recess week.

• claw essay
• 205 interview and part of report
• marketing project and case study
• revision for claw
• revision for 202

the rest of the revision i can leave them alone for now but i need to start on claw and 202. still unhappy with my 202 mid-terms BUT...

i have decided to be happy, and to stop whining about how sad i am or about how many things i need to do.

cos i realised when i start whining, i forget abt all the happy things in my life. i forget to be appreciative of the little things that happen every week. i forgot all abt my weekly list! hahaha. i should start on that again (:

as for the things i need to do, i shall tackle them one by one. and they will be completed when they are completed. lol.

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but if i really need to whine, i think i can pour all my unhappiness to d. haha. can? when i really cnt take it, can i tell you all my unhappy stuff?

and then i know you'd make me happy (: yay.

i can't think

with the hunger and the cramps. my brain feels empty, and the cramps keep coming.

i give up trying to do my claw proj. shall wake up early tmr and do. hopefully i can come up with some points before the meeting in the afternoon.

this is not my worst cramps but it's one of the hardest to endure. i feel today has passed by very slowly. bcos when i tried to sleep in the afternoon, i kept having dreams. but sleeping was good, it removed the cramping pain temporarily. i thought i was okay when i woke up at 2pm, but no, the cramps came back at 2.15. zzz.

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i really hope the raspberry tea i bought online will help. 16 teabags for 10.70 is considered affordable right? if it helps i will continue buying.